New Experiences Without You By My Side

 My Sweet Baby,

I miss you more than words can say. As I sit here at the airport, waiting to board my flight to South Carolina—the first trip I've taken since graduation—I can’t help but reflect on our time together. It’s in these quiet moments that I realize perfection truly exists in this world. To others, our life together might seem ordinary, but to me, you were perfect in every way. You showed me what it means to love deeply and how comfort can feel warm, safe, timeless, and infinite. Sometimes I regret not fully appreciating your boundless potential while you were here, but I’ve come to understand that I couldn’t have seen it, no matter how hard I tried. It’s only now, with you in heaven, that I truly grasp the joy, surprises, and unique ways you communicated to support me—offering the exact words I needed to hear. You’ve left me speechless, in awe, and prouder than I ever imagined possible. I’ve never felt a greater urge to share my happiness and delight, all thanks to you.

When I talk about you, I know others don’t really understand. They might think they do, but deep down, I know they can’t fully grasp the depth and gravity of your impact. This only makes me more thankful, grateful, and humbled to have experienced everything with you. It’s like catching a shooting star or being struck by lightning twice—rare, magical, and beyond comprehension.

I used to doubt the concept of karma, believing that life’s hardships outweighed any return of good fortune. But the beautiful life we shared has changed my perspective entirely. I feel indebted to you for the goodness you brought and continue to bring into my life.

I was talking to Beth the other day about the moment I realized, "You came here for a reason, and that reason is no longer." I once thought your purpose was simply to help me through my depression, but I see now that I was wrong. Your earthly purpose wasn’t just to guide me lovingly through the darkest times; it was to transform my understanding of life itself. Now, you’re teaching me to see the world from a new, unearthly viewpoint—one filled with curiosity, wonder, eagerness, and innocence. Your life here needed to end so you could reveal the magic that unfolds when we are open and equipped with the right tools. You were my guide in life, and now you’re being used by God to show me the heavenly delights that we often take for granted. You are the most incredible teacher, and I am in awe of both you and God for giving you to me. Our connection has blessed me with divine experiences and synchronicities that defy explanation.

As always, this is one of my many love letters to you. I still struggle to find the words to fully capture your incredible power, gentle soul, our connection, and all I’ve learned from your precious life. I ask you and God to continue bringing me wondrous delights for the rest of my days. My dear girl, I love you infinitely.